Among all the realization....and all I am left with is this blog.

Oh man, what a whirl wind, the last few weeks have been crazy, and as I sat here tonight on Memorial Day, catching up in the entire month of May on the Wear Family blog site, some thing hit me. Hit me like your mother does when you are sitting in the farthest seat in the back of the minivan, but somehow she still manages to reach back and smack your face for dropping the f-bomb....Kiki, Frank, Little man...geez what can I say but I am sorry...sorry for the times you (we) needed to talk but I could not, sorry for the fact that I have put so much stuff in front of phone calls and time together...I miss all of you and as I read the blog and could hear the desperation in your "voice" grow, worries about moving, about money, about Chance...it dropped me like a hot skillet. Tuesday nights, I still can close my eyes and see "Rocky Mountain Picture Show", taste the pizza and feel the hot glue gun as it stuck to the bridal bouquet. Life should be simple, it should be easy, and sometimes we don't always see that. Sometimes our vision is clouded by the fog we call "here and now".

So here's to you, my friends and confidants, (and to make Dan happy) Always try to be Dan, Dan is a way of life, and if Dan were not Dan then Dan might be a Dan shame....Love you guys, all of you that read this on a regular basis, even when I am not here to post on a regular basis. Stay strong, fight the fight and may the Dan be with you! Frank, Kiki....most of all...Drive on, we will prevail............................

From UT at Austin to Virginia Univ. and from Ft Bragg to Ft Lewis

Not quite sure why I am in the ranting mood, maybe because I am white trash with pink eye, or maybe because when you are in the thick of it all you can actually sit back and take it all in...and then realize all the living you have lived (and missed) is all in the realm of the same instance.

Yesterday, I attended Nebraska Pride Idol, it is the gay counterpart to American Idol. My friend Josh was a finalist, one of the top ten of the entire few month competition. He was apart of that, he gets to record a song on a Nebraska Pride Idol CD...my friend Josh has a CD, he amazes me sometime! We were there to support him and in turn support Camp Kindle, which is a summer camp for kids that are infected with, or affected by AIDS. (You know. for once being coined the gay cancer, sent forth by God to rid the world of the evil agenda of "the gays", there was not much respect in that room last night.) Misty Stokes, NPI 2004, stood there in a room of roughly 120 people talking about Camp Kindle and why it was such a good cause, while they blatantly disregarded her. The people were loud and obnoxious, while she stood there and tried not to tear up....I turned around and told a couple to shut the hell up and respect the speaker...I was bombarded with, "shut up you fat bitch, we paid our money too..." what the fuck?

People in Omaha want to know why there is not a gay community, why we have no headliners that give a damn about po-dunk shitty ass Omaha...you wanna know why? Because we are hillbilly fags! I hate that word and although it turns my stomach to use it, I hate to admit it that this gay community are a bunch of whiney babies that don't deserve shit. You want rights and the ability to live your life freely, in any way that you seem fit, fuck that! The queers and dykes of Omaha take heed, if you don't change your rude, wannabe, attitudes this city will never change. We need to take the first step, life is not about getting what you want, it is about the push and pull of the life circle, one thing is for sure...death. No one can beat it, no one can change it, until we as a community come together and support each other, this circle is at a standstill. I hate to break it to you, this thing we call life is not for our own salvation, it is for the generations beyond us, our children, grand-children, for our brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, all those that will occupy this world after we are gone. I do not fight for my gay rights, I fight for the sons and daughters that will need those rights in the future.

So to the nice homosexual man that told me to, "fuck off, and to fuck my mom and my dad..." this one is for you...in no way shape or form would I ever see you as a homosexual, you are not worthy of the title of "gay man" you are a catty pansy that will never create a change of good for others, and will always be wondering about what you deserve...well your answer is nothing! You do not deserve friendship, acknowledgement or the right to be gay. We do not want you part of our culture and I was embarrassed that you were apart of that crowd last night.

Is pink eye considered an eye STD?

so yeah about that...I am off to the doctor to get some meds for my eye irritation, which I am hoping is only an eye infection as opposed to the well known pink eye. However they could be the something... I don't know. I will keep you posted!

The funny thing about faith...and changes

So I need to apologize first and foremost to my fans out there, sorry for the pathetic showing of posting lately, not being at school and not having a 'puter at home is hard. So many things have ran through my mind the last couple of days, stuff about what I should post, about school, about life, and mainly about drag. These last few weeks I have been super busy, putting a few shows together, they were, by no means the most fabulous thing we have done, but let me tell you that they were good. We have somehow managed to gain groupies, and while yes it is exciting to be able to sign thirty pair of breasts in a night, it leaves one with a somewhat eerie feeling of stardom. I am from Omaha Nebraska, po-dunk USA, why and how did I get the chance to be apart of this group? It blows my mind, people come out to see us, to yell our names, to give us money, they come to be entertained by us. I am sitting here and the more I ramble the more I am amazed that I am lucky enough to have found this new extra curricular activity and group of friends.

By the way check out the HOT apparel on the right!

If ya'll don't like me...blow me!

yeah so I am just friggen stressed and pissed off, sorry there have not been any posts, I thought after school, I would be somewhat free....yeah you can stick that up your ass! Oh well maybe I will be able to get into a schedule soon and be able to read and post more!

Maybe I should run for the 2016 Presidential Election

So it occurred to me today that I, apparently under some grace of God, have some major effects on people, and not to bore those of you that I have already told the story, I will keep it brief here. I have been recognized by seven people in the last five days, and these people are from the past. One was a guy, that I used to play ball with his best friend, one of the others was a gentleman that works at an establishment that I frequent, and still another was an ex's co-worker. I am not sure why I have had an effect on these people or why they remember me, but kudos to you folks because obviously I have made an impact on your life, and you were only too lucky to know me! So here is to you kids! By the way Happy Mother's Day to those of you with kids, and to those of you who want kids...go to a Chucky Cheese for an afternoon, that is the best form of birth control!

I'm going to HELL!

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Spanish...Mexican...ain't it the same thing?!

So here is a general question for all you kids out there, why do fat people wear tight clothes? I mean seriously, I know I am a bit of a fat ass but do you see me skipping around in a sausage fitting shirt? (Well to be honest you don't really see me skipping all that much either!) But, No! The answer is NO! Why? You may ask, or as I am hoping most of you out there think the same thing I do, because I am not skinny, therefore I do not expect to be able to wear skinny clothes! This girl came in my section the other day, sat down, huge everything all over the place, she went to reach for her "Diet Coke" and I had to take cover because the reverberations from her arm fat came washing toward me like a 20 foot wave! Do you wanna know what she was wearing?!....Hold on give me a minute I just threw up a little bit thinking about it...oh man it was horrible, a little mid-riff shirt with little booty shorts, it was like watching Fat Albert trying to squeeze into one of Britney Spears' outfits! Seriously do they think that they are hot? Do they think that because they are fat they have all the fashion sense of skinny people...here is a hint, wear something that is your size! I may wear shit that is too big, but hell, at least my ta's and as' aren't hanging out!

Circus Jeux

So this is to you Christine for sending me flowers in my time of need, you always know how yo make me feel like a woman!

Thought for the day

A good friend will bail you out of jail, but your best friend will be sitting next you in jail saying, "That was fucking awesome!"

So apparently....

Nothing new, class tonight for the last time this semester...having lunch with a few friends today...baked penne, yummm I can smell it, who is jealous? Anywho I will post more tomorrow, it will be a day of partying and celebrating but I suppose I can find a few minutes to indulge for my faithful readers!

To my one true love

Yeah that's you, you know who you are...um I tried to call like three or four times this last week and weekend, where the hell have you been? I know it ain't studying so...by the way I am hot!

Oh man so close...

Yeah so the first final is over, did not do as well as I wanted, but that is my own fault, I will be posting more later, after my meeting. Plus we got the posters back for our next Kingsmen performances, man I look hot, I will hopefully be posting a copy soon!